Lessons Lost

February 21, 2012 § Leave a comment

I’ve learned so many things over the years.
I’ve been taught to cry and laugh through my fears.
Love has blinded my soul and hate my heart.
God has kept me from falling apart.

Today I sit where I can, lay where I will.
The world has given less than my fill.
Loneliness is a ghost… maybe a friend.
Togetherness is nothing some will lend.
I could cry, maybe I should scream,
but why when life must be a dream?

Parts are missing deep inside what I am.
Maybe hidden behind the proverbial dam ā€”
lost behind walls made of fear and rage.
Building between bars of loss’s cage.
Maybe stripped away with passing time
or shattered after the fall of my prime.

I’ve learned the losses over the years.
I’ve been taught to cry and laugh through my fears.
Hurt has blinded my soul and joy my heart.
Love has kept me from falling apart.

Is it the love or the woman I lost.
That carries this atrocious cost?
Days have found themselves ruthless.
The nights snarling toothless.
I can’t be destroyed with it all,
but each year I steadily fall.

This day I let all the past go.
Tonight let the rhythm slow.
I love her ā€” never doubt this verity.
This is all I’ve ever seen with clarity.
And I may never know how or why,
but I can still say farewell, goodbye.

I’d learned so many things over the years.
I’d been taught to cry and laugh through my fears.
She has blinded my soul and love my heart.
Nothing kept me from falling apart.

 

This is an older piece, by a few years, but I wanted to share it. It shows a viciousness I think we all live through – though some of us never make it all the way to the other side before we lose. I think that’s what’s saddest about the poem.

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